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18 August 2011 @ 10:57 pm
All These Chains Holdin' Me - a Mary Crawley fanmix  

So I only discovered Downton Abbey a month ago and I fell in love with Lady Mary Crawley pretty much instantly & then I finished the show and I was getting huge withdrawals and I just want to scream over the rooftops my love for Mary, so instead I decided to search for a fanmix but I found none, so I decided to make one myself.
So in this I just wanted to show Mary's dealing with life as in how she lives with the idea of the entail (and how she's powerless and cannot change it no matter how much she wants to), the fact that she wants to be heard, the fact that she has to marry because she eldest daughter (hence responsibilities) and how she's actually scared of this whole situation, her relationship with her family (mostly her parents, and mostly Cora) and how she thinks she's not worthy, MATTHEW (of course), and just how I think she feels with her life and how I think she doesn't feel free and she doesn't really want to marry and she just wants a normal life (= all these chains holding her.)
So there is that I hope you like it and if you don't I apologise.

                                                        ALL THESE CHAINS HOLDIN' ME


01. You can't always get what you want | The Rolling Stones (mary/life) *

You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You just might find, you get what you need

02. Help i'm alive | Metric (mary/mary, mary/everyone) *

Help I'm alive my heart keeps beating like a hammer
Beating like a hammer

If you're still alive, my regrets are few
If my life is mine, what shouldn't I do ?
I get wherever I'm going, I get whatever I need
While my blood's still flowing, and my heart still beats
Beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer

03. Mary | Tori Amos (mary/life/fear) *

Growing up isn't always fun
They tore your dress and stole your ribbons
They see you cry, they lick their lips
But butterflies don't belong in nets

Oh mary, can you hear me?
Mary, you're bleeding
Mary, don't be afraid
We're just waking up
And i hear help is on the way

Mary, can you hear me?
Mary, like jimmy said
Mary, don't be afraid
'cause even the wind...
Even the wind cries your name

04. When I fail | Greg Graffin (mary(/cora-family)(/failure) - episode 3 and after) * 

One day my life will be a chocolate shake and late night t.v
But right now i'm afraid of everything that is going down
Too many decisions
Too much responsibility
And no one is there to hold me
When i fail
Like the deer who knows he won't survive the winter so he runs in fear
The drifts too deep, the browse too scarce, the able too strong to compete
And i wonder if
I was stronger when
I didn't care if no one was there to hold me
When i fail

05. Whisper | A fine frenzy (mary/mary's reputation, mary/family) *

I'm down to a whisper
In a daydream on a hill
Shut down to a whisper
Can you hear me still

Eager to please,
Trying to be what they need
But I'm so very tired
I've stopped trying to find
Any peace in my mind
Because it tangles the wires

06. Breakable | Ingrid Michaelson (mary, everyone) * 

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

And we are so fragile,
And our cracking bones make noise,
And we are just,
Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

07. Something to believe in | Aqualung (mary/feeling lost) *

We stumble into our lives,
Reach for a hand to hold.
And any wonder
We need to find
A certain something, certain.

Turn out the light
And what are you left with?
Open up my hands
And find out they're empty.
Press my face to the ground
I've gotta find a reason.
Just scratching around
For something to believe in, something to believe in.

08. I wish I knew how it would feel to be free | Nina Simone (mary/wish for freedom) *

I wish I knew how
It would feel to be free
I wish I could break
All the chains holding me
I wish I could say
All the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole round world to hear
I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars
That keep us apart
I wish you could know
What it means to be me
Then you'd see and agree
That every man should be free

09. Stand in the rain | Superchick (mary/mary's strength) *

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day what's lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fears whispering
If she stands, she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through
everything she's running from
Wants to give up and lie down

10. Down | Jason Walker (mary/wish for another life/can't change her life) * 

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I'm not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up, what I’ve been wishing for.

Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

11. Die alone | Ingrid Michaelson (mary/marymary/matthew!) *

I woke up this morning with a funny taste in my head.
Spackled some butter over my whole grain bread.
Something tastes different, maybe it's my tongue.
Something tastes different, suddenly I'm not so young.

I'm just a stranger, even to myself.
A re-arranger of the proverbial bookshelf.
Don't be a fool girl, tell him you love him.
Don't be a fool girl, you're not above him.

I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.

12. Wait it out | Imogen Heap (mary/matthew, mary/life, (mary/war, mary/future), end of season 1 & on to season 2) *

Where do we go from here?
How do we carry on?
I can't get beyond the questions.
Clambering for the scraps
In the shatter of us collapsed.
That cuts me with every could-have-been.

Pain on pain on play, repeating
With the backup makeshift life in waiting.

Are we just going to wait it out?
Sit here. Just going to wait it out?
Sit here cold. Just going to sweat it out?

(if for some reason it doesn't work ask me and i will fix it!)

ENJOY. And thank you.

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DJ ROOMBA: DOWNTON | so i've ruined everything?delarges on August 19th, 2011 03:00 am (UTC)
omggg something to believe in is my favorite aqualung song and asdfghjkl THIS IS PERFECT, MARY IS PERFECT, YOU ARE PERFECT!!!!!!!